Behold: Tube weaning research and guidelines

When is the last time a research paper made you cry? Around the time of Stella's wean, and since then, I've come across information that moved me on many levels. I'd like to pass along these sought-after papers to as many parents (of children and babies with feeding aversions and NG tubes or g-tubes) as… Continue reading Behold: Tube weaning research and guidelines

Wheel! Of! Feeding!

It occurred to me today that feeding Stella is like being on The Wheel of Fortune, a show that I've always loathed. As she's eating, I'm basically thinking, "Big Money! Big Money!" When she's done with the bottle, I look to see how much she's eaten--200 mls or more is the equivalent of landing on… Continue reading Wheel! Of! Feeding!

Meet Diego

Back in mid-November, when Stella's NG tube was put into her cute nose and down into her then-hungry and confused tummy, I was understandably freaked out. I wondered if it was the right thing to do. I worried about how it would affect her. So I did the worst possible thing I could do. I… Continue reading Meet Diego

My other resume

I've jumped back into the freelance writing life in an effort to make a bit of money while I stay home with Stella Bella. This, of course, necessitated the updating of my resume. It got me thinking. Some of my most impressive achievements and abilities will never grace the pages of this supposedly all-important document.… Continue reading My other resume

Please no.

Stella has been getting more and more difficult around eating again and I am starting to freak out about it. She is starting to refuse the bottle more and more. She doesn't want to eat upon waking up after sleeping for 10 to 11 hours. We now wait an hour after she wakes up, and… Continue reading Please no.

A freakout. A rant. And endless gratitude.

Early this afternoon, Stella got upset and took only 100 mls from the bottle. It was really weird. All my fears and worries came rushing back. Granted, she took around 180 before and after that. But what a scare. I was so upset, I yelled at Cody like a maniac. He was holding her because… Continue reading A freakout. A rant. And endless gratitude.

Toes company

Stella would be very happy if left naked and able to nibble on her toes all day long. That's right. Today, she finally, after many past efforts, put her foot in her mouth, and chomped on her big toe. And then she kept doing it. Over and over. She is talking more and more. Making… Continue reading Toes company

A “grand” day

Today, Stella enjoyed 1000 mls from the bottle. It's our family's equivalent of breaking the sound barrier, or walking on the moon. It's historic and worthy of endless news coverage. I just fed her. It's such a lovely, peaceful, fulfilling, loving experience--even if it's not breastfeeding anymore! We sit in the rocking chair next to… Continue reading A “grand” day

Days 22 through 25: Stella got her groove back

As Stella's occupational therapist put it, "Stella has internalized the joy of eating." Her feeding aversion is, well, history. A memory. Though not a distant memory, of course. We still get nervous if she goes for a long stretch without eating. We still watch her eating behavior like mama and papa hawks, and breathe a… Continue reading Days 22 through 25: Stella got her groove back

Days 18, 19 and 20: Stella turns a corner!

I love Christmas. A tree is a must, of course. In fact, a Christmas tree really has to be at least six feet tall for it to feel right to me. I've been collecting ornaments for years and love every one of them. Now that we live in a house, I wanted to decorate the porch with lights so… Continue reading Days 18, 19 and 20: Stella turns a corner!